Melbourne is once again back into lockdown. This would be our 5th lockdown. I feel like living in a loop, going around and round unable to get out of the cycle. Melburnians have already spent around 205 days (i.e. ~29 weeks) in this kind of loop, with no more than 5km from home, only allowed to leave home for essentials like getting food/medicine, only 2 hours of outdoor exercise is allowed, work from home, no visitors at home and many other restrictions. One would think that it would get easier after already spending more than half a year collectively living like this but it is not, it is getting harder and harder to bear.
I was having a very hard time during lockdown 4.0. I went into a very dark place. I was extremely upset and frustrated when the lockdown was announced then I became hopeless. Lockdown 4.0 affected me deeply because of:
1. Fatigue from year 2 of this virus.
2. Frustration and disappointment from yet another lockdown, border closures and hence had to cancel a cycling tour from Darwin to Broome.
All these added up and my mental health was badly affected.
I was slowly picking myself up 2-3 weeks after lockdown 4.0 ended and started to spend more time outdoors. It is hard to argue with the restorative and nourishing effects of outdoor cycling, something that is very hard to obtain from indoor cycling, no matter how great virtual indoor cycling have become.
Maybe it’s the warm sun and wind on my face.
Maybe it’s the colour green.
Maybe it’s the stillness of the trees.
Maybe it’s the birdsongs.
Or maybe it’s all of the above.
Whatever it is, being in the outdoor and in the nature helps alot to soothe, restore and nourish this weary mind 🙏🏼
It was also my very first time cycling outdoor in the winter period. Unfortunately, we went back into lockdown 1.5 weeks after I did this ride. DAMN IT! (Sorry for my language). Mental health recovery has to be put on hold again. Thankfully though I am dealing and managing better with lockdown 5.0. Hopefully I do not go crazy before lockdown ends.